It’s so nice and gloomy

Today is, for me, yet another one of those days where getting up and moving about is a tremendous struggle. I think I’m hungry but feeding myself seems to require too much effort. As does dressing, washing, and brushing my tangled hair. He’s gone off to work, hours ago actually, and it usually takes me […]

Invisibility Cloak

    I have mostly forgotten what seemed like a nightmare. Those feelings, the wrenching pain, the shock, the sorrow, that night he said he had been having an affair. My world as I knew it collapsed entirely. It’s funny, after every terrible thing I have ever been through that is what did it. A […]

Getting over it

I used to be hurt. Hurt that he lied. Hurt that he faked going to work while he spent hours with her. Later I realized she was easy, available, and could have been anyone. In fact I quite think years ago I was her. Not in any particular way, but the deer caught in headlights […]

“But it just might be a lunatic you’re looking for”

In some schools of thought you attract what you want, what you are. I say bullshit. I was duped. He appeared charming, intelligent, funny as can be, intense, passionate, spiritual, a big thinker, without boundaries… for the first 6 months. It was a whirlwind. A dream. A fairy tale. We spent passionate night after night […]